I am attempting to find an outlet or 'vent' if you will. I thought this might be a good place to start. I am 'the support' for my wife. I believe that this wonderful journey we call infertility shouldn't include me complaining, crying, being sad, moping or anything of the like. She has enough to deal with.
At first I don't think she quite understood why I was choosing not to talk to her about my difficulties with all of this. She knows they are there and thats about the extent of it. I talk to my parents and thats about it. I am doing just fine - I am here for her, thats my job in all of this. Well, that and being the sperm emporium.
I guess I want a few things to come of this:
1. Have some sort of emotional outlet.
2. Learn a little bit about what's to come - we are coming up on our first IUI.
3. And hopefully provide a little help in some form to other people in the same situation along the way.
Bottom line - this sucks. Emotionally, physically, financially, etc....sucks! All of it. Its pretty overwhelming at times. I guess the hard part for me is not showing any vulnerability in front of my wife. She feels guilty enough...I don't need to add to it and I'm pretty firm in that belief. She sometimes talks about how its her and not me so therefore not fair to me - I honestly have never thought of it like that, not even once. Its us and only us, I just wish I would be the one to have to get prodded and drugged. She doesn't deserve this.
Latest lesson learned:
Medical bills should never be underestimated. :)